by Chris de Serres
When you are not satisfied with life you get distracted, all the time. It seems like every day I am looking for the detour. Looking to turn to something else. So I don’t have to look at my life. I don’t have to see how far off my dreams are in the distance. I don’t have to see how incapable I feel of getting there. I can only let it weigh on me, just heavy enough not to crush me, but there always.
I don’t like to live life that way. I’m not even sure how or why I do. I have a beautiful daughter who I live for. A beautiful wife who will support me no matter what.
These are all issues i’ve struggled with my entire life. It goes way back to childhood. I am used to not receiving the support from family. I am used to not doing. My world is of disappointment. Revealing myself just for a second, just long enough to be dashed. A moment for my dream to be stepped on and I find myself back in the turtle shell of nothing.